breaking ground

i am really stuck in a state of shock right now. i really didnt think that this discussion would actually, tangibly...ever...happen. i don't really know whether to be happy....which i naturally am....or not.

its 3:53 kevin left my house 30 minutes ago and now i Cant sleep. and i have to get up at 7 which is realllly convenient but anyway...

i never thought he would have the actual realization that he did. i'm not going to go in depth because noone could understand the stuff that has happened between him and i and the ridiculous stupid pain i go through because of his complex mind. its nights like tonight why i know i can't ever look at anyone else, especially the way i do him.

but there is hope.

there is hope...

ps, bon iver was awesome