Thursday, April 23, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
The baby's breath, our bravery wasted and our shame
And we'll undress beside the ashes of the fire
Both our tender bellies wound in baling wire
All the more, a pair of underwater pearls
Than the oak tree and its resurrection fern
In our days we will say what our ghosts will say:
We gave the world what it saw fit
And what'd we get?
Like stubborn boys with big green eyes we'll see everything:
In the timid shade of the autumn leaves and the buzzard's wing.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
I am in an environment + technology course this semester under the engineering school and its.... basically the most bluntly terrifying thing to sit through twice a week. Its terrifying because my professor, who really is adorable and i love her she looks like Kate Spade my idol, its just listing off how every aspect of the lives that we Americans are just so accustomed to living is fucking murdering the planet. We think we're so ahead of the game and so high tech and on the cutting edge its disgussssssting how much stuff is just thrown away...and how much of that leaks into the ground...and what that does to US in turn.... but thats just one aspect. We had to read these 4 visions of the future and it was just depressing to me because its discouraging me from ever becoming a mother, the one thing in life I've always been so excite to become. It almost is beginning to seem stupid to continue bringing life into a planet thats basically doomed. As much as Id like to be optimistic about it, it would simply take some ridiculous miracle or the sudden existance of some actual God to perform some astronomical magic on this planet for things to really start working the way they need to.
Its about back to basic lifestyle. A regression to relying on simple, non material elements of life and finding happyness in that simplicity....something I think our world has gotten to far ahead of to ever return back to.
BUT ESSENTIALLY, IF EVERYONE WOULD RECYCLE EVERYTHING AND STOP EATING MEAT, MAYBE I COULD FEEL LESS GUILTY WANTING TO HAVE BABIES
Monday, January 26, 2009
I woke up this morning, amidst one of the seemingly longest and most drawn out dreams I've had in a while. It was so fresh in my mind at the time, and I knew I wanted to write about it but I had to get ready and go to class. Therefore most of the details...and actually most of the basic plot memory has been lost over the past 4 hours but I'm going to try to trace and remember as much as I can.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
the lovliest words, whispered and meant
you (i) like all these things.
But, though you like all these things
you love a stone.
You love a stone,
because it's smooth and it's cold.
And you'd love most to be told
that it's all your own.
You love white veins,
you love hard grey,
the heaviest weight,
the clumsiest shape,
the earthiest smell,
the hollowest tone
you love a stone.
You love a stone,
because it's dark and it's old,
and if it could start being alive
you'd stop living alone.
And I think I believe that,
if stones could dream,
they'd dream of being laid
and turned into a castle
for some towering queen
they're unable to know.
And when that queen's daughter came of age,
I think she'd be lovely and stubborn and brave,
and suitors would journey from kingdoms away
just to make themselves known....